Keep the faith

Somehow it’s going to be alright. I have to tell myself this periodically when a sense of impending doom creeps in. When the worries of life whisper in my ear.

“How are you going to save for retirement?”, “When do you think you’ll actually stop working?”, and “What makes you so special?”

1. Slowly
2. Hopefully 65, but it would be nice if some miracle happened earlier.
3. Not much really.

I don’t want to let the evil creep in and give negative thoughts any space in my head. I don’t have time for this and I don’t want to be self destructive. I’ve seen too many pity parties and no way I’m going to slide into the role of host.

That’s exactly what it is – a slide. A very simple easy ride that doesn’t seem to have an end. You scream the whole way down and realize you didn’t have it so bad to begin with. It’s only till you hit rock bottom that you realize that, but then there’s nowhere to go but up! Right? Right.

 

It’s Just the Beginning

In a few short hours I will have my manuscript back from my editor. Through all the ups and downs I feel like this is just the beginning. I know I am going to go through a heck of a lot of changes, but it will be worth it.

There are so many people grasping at straws these days and it’s hard to find stable land. The only time I feel that I’m doing the right thing with my life is when I’m writing. When I let the words fly I surprise myself and gain a deeper insight into my own psyche.

Why did I make the characters like this? Why did I decide to make my MC act this way? Because it’s all me. Pieces of me in every character. Each one reacting how I would if I was shattered into a million pieces. I’m never more honest than when I’m writing even though I try to cover and cloak my characters it’s really just that. Thinly veiled I feel I might be called out for what I’m doing so I assume it best to confess before it starts.

I am the good, I am the bad, and I am the evil.

Within each of my characters there’s light and dark. And just as my heart can decide which one I will be I let the characters duke it out on my behalf. Some days I want the evil to win, wipe everyone out, start fresh. Then that glimmer, that light, that tiny ray of hope spills through till it becomes the power of a thousand suns.

The wars that I will wage in my own honour, to satisfy my own ego, thank goodness it’s all just paper.

We all have that within. Sometimes it feels like riding a lighting bolt for the story to unfold. Bucking and blistering, but it’s worth it, the pain is always worth it.

Just as this story comes back to me so shall it leave. The next time it does I will see it become stronger. My mettle will be tested and I will meet this challenge head on.

Let’s let a little blood flow and see where it takes us.

 

 

 

And the list grew and grew

While I’m waiting for my novel to come back from my editor Sara (website) of Serendipity Editing (FB page), I’m not staying idle. I figure why not make a big ass list for marketing my story. I cannot believe how many book reviewer bloggers there are. It’s seriously overwhelming.

As I am incredibly meticulous about planning, I planned my wedding in 3 months, you can imagine the lengths I am going to make this an amazing campaign.

I plan on organizing all the names of the sites I will be featured on by colour coding a chart and lining up the dates so they stagger one group on top of another.

Something like this:

It will be rather beautiful to watch during the execution, but the actual planning of it will probably cause a few tears to shed if things don’t go as planned. That’s why I hope to have at least 100 bloggers all in groups, so even if one drops out I have back up. This is going to be quite the plan, but I don’t see why it can’t be done.

Promotion/marketing, is all about getting your name out there and through various mediums. Sure, there’s consumer burn out, if someone sees you too often, but it’s so hard to cut through the clutter in the first place to cause that reaction. I mean, do people really read more than 10 book blogs? I’d love to know.

I plan on a Christmas release, so let’s see what happens in the next few months. Each day I grow closer than where I was when I started. Yes, that’s obvious, but it’s somewhat scary when you make that realization. I am past the point of dreaming and I am doing; therein lies the difference. There will always be arm chair enthusiasts, but that’s where the real achievers make their mark and go beyond the idle dreaming. Doing something, actually making an impact is a lot harder than one imagines, but the satisfaction is incredible.

The more we get together the happier we’ll be

I loved Raffi. He made me so happy as a child. His voice was soothing and some days you need a little reminder of how magical childhood was.

I feel this way about Facebook. I find the more I find new wonderful people, they have lovely friends, and the cycle continues. I do believe the more we get together the happier we’ll be. The readers will be happy, the writers will be happy, the never ending hugging cycle.

We could all use a big hug. Sending one out to everyone!

 

Raffi – More We Get Together Lyrics

The more we get together,
Together, together,
The more we get together,
The happier we’ll be.

В’Cause your friends are my friends,
And my friends are your friends.
The more we get together,
The happier we’ll be.
Oh, the more we get together,
Together, together,
The more we get together,
The happier we’ll be.
ThereВ’s Chris and Tanya
And Jason and Jusitn.
The more we get together,
The happier we’ll be.

(Ok, are you ready to sing now?)

The more we get together,
Together, together,
The more we get together,
The happier we’ll be.

В’Cause your friends are my friends,
And my friends are your friends.
The more we get together,
The happier we’ll be.

The dashboard melted, but we still have the radio

Sometimes I wonder what makes people so angry. I don’t get the hate, but then again, I’m not one for being constantly angry, so perhaps it makes sense for those who are. I’m trying to give people the benefit of the doubt, but the latest news in the indie world regarding authors being targeted through negative reviews on Goodreads, etc., really makes me wonder what is going on.

The fact that authors are pushed to the brink of suicide, to the point of throwing up arms and giving up, it makes me horribly sad. What on earth are these people saying? What is it that has cut the authors down to the quick?

I feel for my fellow scribes and I hope this doesn’t continue. No one needs to see a roving pack of wild dogs out for blood. (Please don’t think I hate dogs, I really don’t at all, I love my own dog very much!)

Not liking a story is one thing, I will give anyone that, they’re free to express the fact that the story was not for them. I can understand that perhaps a style, or a story line, or characters just didn’t reach people the way the author intended. I don’t understand making anyone cry with the rudest things ever said. I have read a few one star reviews and I had to stop. The negativity was overwhelming and didn’t really help the reviewers cause as most of their reviews were negative. Makes you wonder what on earth do these people like exactly?

The indie community has been there for me, I adore it, and I hope that I can spread some positive words about it. I really hope that people just a) shut their mouths if they have nothing nice to say and b) spread some love around because people need to hear that.

Hugs to everyone. Except the haters, no love from me you scrubs.

 

MODEST MOUSE LYRICS

“Dashboard”

Well, it would’ve been, could’ve been worse than you would ever know.
Oh, the dashboard melted, but we still have the radio.Oh, it should’ve been, could’ve been worse than you would ever know.
Well, you told me about nowhere well it sounds like someplace I’d like to go.Oh, it could’ve been, should’ve been worse than you would ever know.
Well, the windshield was broken but I love the fresh air you know.
(The dashboard melted but we still have the radio)Oh, it would’ve been, could’ve been worse than you would ever know, oh!
(The dashboard melted but we still have the radio)
Oh, we talked about nothing which was more than I wanted you to know-oh-oh-oh-oh.
Now here we go!

Oh! It would’ve been, could’ve been worse than it had even gone
Well, the car was on blocks, but I was already where I want.
(It was impossible, we ran it good, we ran it good)

Why should we ever even ever really even get to know?
(It was impossible, we ran it good, we ran it good)
Oh if the world don’t like us it’ll shake us just like we were a co-oh-oh-oh-old.
Now here we go!

Well we scheme and we scheme but we always blow it
We’ve yet to crash, but we still might as well tow it
Standing at a light switch to each east and west horizon,
Every dawn you’re surprising,
and in the evening one’s consoling
Saying “See it wasn’t quite as bad as”
Well, it would’ve been, could’ve been worse than you would ever know.

I was patiently erasing and recording the wrong episodes
After you had proved my point wrong,
It wasn’t like I’d let it go, oh-oh-oh. Oh-oh-oh.
I just wanted to catch the last laugh of this show.

Yeah, it would’ve been, could’ve been worse than you would ever know.
Oh, the dashboard melted, but we still have the radio.
(The dashboard melted, but we ran it good, we ran it good)

Hard-wired to conceive, so much we’d have to stow it
Even needs have needs, tiny giants made of tinier giants.
Don’t wear eyelids so I don’t miss the last laugh of this show.
(The dashboard melted but we still have the radio)

Oh, we could’ve been, should’ve been worse than you would ever know.
(The dashboard melted but we still have the radio)
Well, you told me about nowhere well it sounds like someplace I’d like to go-oh-oh-oh-oh.
Now here we go!

Well we scheme and we scheme but we always blow it
We’ve yet to crash, but we still might as well tow it
Standing at a light switch to each east and west horizon,
Every dawn you’re surprising,
and in the evening one’s consoling
Saying “See it wasn’t quite as bad as”

Oh it would’ve been, could’ve been worse than you would ever know.

Made it up that hill

Well, check me out, I finally did it! I have stopped tinkering and I have mentally prepared myself to let my manuscript go. I don’t want to be that mother who cries when her kid goes off to school. I will stand tall, wave, and hold my head high. It’ll be okay, I tell myself, it’s just a little while.

I’ll try not to worry, wonder how it’s doing, if it’s being treated well and making friends. I’ll try to spend my time writing its new cousin instead. If I can even do that. Don’t know how much I’ll be able to focus. We’ll have to see about that.

When my story comes back it’ll be better than ever and just itching to be made whole again.

We’ll cuddle and be happy and I’ll try to work through the red marks. This is the most exciting thing in the life of my story so far. I have actually taken that step to push forward and make it REAL.

Woo!

How to really alienate a potential customer Editor edition

I have been looking for an editor and in the middle of my queries I received an interesting response. Now, this is after I have explained that I want to keep my story in the present tense. This email takes place after the editor read a few of my sample chapters.

It really kills me that she doesn’t even address me by name.

 

Hi,

I’ve done a quick sample of several pages and here are my professional findings and opinions:
Writing in present tense is always a problem – most writers (even very experienced ones, have a difficult time staying in the proper tense because it’s human nature to use past tense when telling or “showing” a story). I won’t edit and leave a novel in present tense.
The only editing I did was to fix a few basic verb issues and some punctuation errors – because there are so many issues with the writing itself – too many uses of “I” and “me” and “my” … entire sentences would need to be restructured … there are too many sentence fragments that don’t belong together … incomplete comparisons … wrong uses of words.
I’m sending the sample back to you in a proper sample format – paragraph indents – no extra space between paragraphs – at least 1.5 line space (preferred for Courier typeface that you used, if Times is used, it reads even better with 2.0 line spacing). For editing purposes, I accept manuscripts in any format, but for publishing you should look at these ideas and compare them to other books.
If I were to accept this manuscript for editing, it would take more time than my current schedule allows, and my charge would be a penny a word. The text needs several edits … one to work on building the excessive pronoun use (that would involve major rewrites) … one to clean up the verb and punctuation issues … one to tie it all together … and then, after the rewrites, the proofreading phase. I didn’t have a chance to read enough copy to know if the characters and plot are properly built.
Although I enjoy assisting new writers, and enjoy a challenge… unfortunately, because of the time required for this book, I don’t have space on my calendar until possibly September.
My advice, in order to save you a lot of money, is to have friends, coworkers, or relatives read the book and help you clean up some of the issues I’ve mentioned. Then find several people who will Beta read it for free for the story itself … don’t ask them to correct spelling, punctuation or grammar … just to give you their opinion on how the story flows, if it ties together properly and if they like the characters and plot. Try to fix some of the verbs yourself and reword sentences where you’re not using so many pronouns, or repeating the same words in a sentence. Then … if you’re still interested, send me the manuscript and if it’s feasible to edit at that time, we can go from there.
I know I’m not telling you what you want to hear … but I won’t accept an editing job just for the money from people who need additional assistance or coaching. My edits are honest and that’s the only way you want an editor to be. Whoever you end up working with should be honest and offer praise and encouragement where possible along with teaching you proper grammar and the rules of the confusing English language :) 
take care
thanks,



Now, let me get this straight. I’m basically so awful that I will require several edits? Okay. I can admit that I’m doing this in a different way and I have faults. Yes, I take full responsibility for not being a perfect writer. That is why I have come to an editor. Is that not the point?



Here’s my response:


Dear (name withheld),

Thank you for your email. I realized I’m not the type of client you usually deal with. Apparently, these people have a better grasp on the English language.

Let me apologize for providing a horrendous document where the errors were so intense you could not devote time to read further regarding character development.

I agree with you that it needs work. I understand that, I truly do, and I will try my hardest to make that happen.

I believe I will change the tenses to past. Thank you for showing me how important this is through your clear disinterest.

Perhaps I will pick up a grammar book first to avoid embarrassing myself before contacting another editor.

Good day.

L



Silly me for thinking this was the editors job, non? Also, I looked at the edits she made and all she did was change everything to present tense and mention two fragmented sentences. I hardly call that horrible. Lady, I’ve seen worse writing than that. Bah.

I have since found an editor that I believe will work out rather well. I sent her this email and she did mention it was negative and there could have been a nicer way to say this. I don’t want to surround myself with yes people, but honestly. I’m not trying to run away from someone saying something negative, I welcome a critique, but I don’t enjoy a holier-than-thou attitude.

THEN…wait for it…wait for it…SHE WROTE BACK.

Please don’t worry about embarrassing yourself … with me or any other editor. From the little I read, there’s a good story underneath the errors – that’s the most difficult thing to do (write an interesting story).

I was serious about being the type of editor who enjoys helping writers … if there’s anything else I can do while you work on this project, please just email and I’ll try to do what I can.
thanks,
Um…okay. Apparently sarcasm is completely lost on her.  After this I really have no words.