2014 has to be the year. I can’t dilly dally any longer. I have to get this puppy up and out and into the wild blue yonder. The holidays come and go, mainly taking up time that I could be writing, but that’s family obligation for you. All I can think about is what my characters are doing. Do I need to emphasize this scene more, do I need to add this sentiment, do I need to make them more human?
Right now I’m using Storyist as Scrivener hasn’t come up with an iMac/iPad friendly app. I write on the go and need to have this feature.
I keep going over the scene where my main characters first meet. I have to make this the best I can. Is this how they’d react? Is this realistic? Is this stupid? Ugh. Second guessing, going around in circles. I think I’ve done all I can right now, but I’m sure I’ll come back to that. The frustrations of fear; fear that I don’t do my characters justice and that others will find my writing to be a massive joke. No one wants to be the butt of jokes, or SNL skits, or a meme. I can’t stand the idea of people gathered in an online forum poking and proding my story, making fun of it and being jerks in general.
Yes, I know I have to grow a thick skin and I can’t care, but I do want to make my story better even the harshest critiques have some truth in them. I don’t want to be that person who can’t stand up to it. I just want it done in a humane way. I’ve read horror stories of people leaving 1 star reviews on Goodreads and being bullies to authors. I don’t think right now I am in the state to handle that. Sigh.
This is a process and I must keep going. 2014 – this is it!