Take what you can get

Sure, it took me a week to write a thousand words, but I did it and that’s what counts. I didn’t write A Raven’s Revenge in order. In fact, I wrote the ending mid-way through. I did that mainly to inspire myself to keep going. I suppose that’s a little cheat because now I have to work backwards to fill in the parts leading up to the end, but it gives me hope that there is one.

Yes, this one is a cliffhanger ending as well, but it also solves things a little as well.

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This story has me on the edge. I did a few unsavoury things to characters. Sure, some of them deserved it and justice is served, but I have a feeling people are going to truly hate me for some scenes. Even I was shocked, but in this book, no one is safe.

Don’t worry, I’m not George R.R. Martin, I’m not totally heartless, just enough to pull a few heartstrings. I have to remember who my characters are. They’re not human, they’re not going to pay by those rules, and Hell is truly a horrible place.

Let’s see what happens next, because even I don’t know.



Hitting high and low points in writing

Let’s face it; writing is a rollercoaster. Especially when developing characters of whom, as a writer, you torture in strange ways. Yesterday, I wrote a scene that honestly made me terribly sad, but I think it was necessary. What happened you ask? I basically hurt a character in a graphic way and the emotional exchange between these two characters was hard for me to write. It was as if I had hurt a family member and was explaining their pain to the world.

Sure, that sounds nutty, but I love these characters and they’re a very real part of me. I’d love to hang out with them. Like L. Frank Baum, the author of the Oz series, who said with his dying breath, “Now we can cross the Shifting Sands,” I hope their world is my afterlife.

I have no doubt that readers will cry at this point in the story as it is rather moving. What amazes me is that I have the power to do just that. With my words, I can make people actually feel something.  Just incredible really. When I think of all the authors who have touched me I am in awe of that ability. I never thought I’d be able to wield such a power, but here we are. I suppose I shouldn’t be too surprised, but still.

Therein lies the imposter syndrome I suffer from.

For the past, oh gosh, is it four years now, I’ve been a professional writer in my real life. This was a huge switch from the account service/marketing work I had been doing. It still shocks me that I can be introduced as a Content Writer. I feel like my boss will wake up one day and tell me I’m a fraud and I’m fired. But no, this is legit, I’m doing this, and it’s for real. Sometimes, that afraid feeling gets in the way and I have a difficult time putting words on the page.

Writing has been the only thing that has been a constant in my life and frankly it’s saved me a few times. I’m incredibly fortunate enough to be a writer in my professional and personal life. Even though I criticise each sentence I write and double think things till the cows come home. I worry about my grammar if I’m splitting infinitives and if I have the right punctuation. Honestly, it’s exhausting. Even after I’ve hit publish I’ll go through this post and think oh, I should fix that, what I was I thinking, that’s such an obvious mistake. Bah. Maybe this time I won’t! There. Take that, brain!

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I’ve also managed to hit 35,000 words, which is amazing in itself. I am gaining momentum, in a slow, sluggish fashion and that’s good enough for me right now.

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Half way there…ooooh, living on a prayer

I suppose I’ve finally reached the halfway mark for a novel with 33,620 words. Screen Shot 2017-12-28 at 8.50.00 AM

I’m okay with my book not being as big as the first, but perhaps I’ll take this as a sign that I’m not overwriting this time? I learned a lot from writing A Raven’s Touch and I’m trying to apply these principles to A Raven’s Revenge.

What have I learned?
1. Don’t add too much action without an explanation
People complained the story was jumping from one action scene to the next

2. Give your characters depth and let them experience emotions
Some reviewers said that Justice/Moira didn’t act like regular teenagers. I’m trying to give them as real emotions as I believe them to have. Hopefully, that works.

3. Show don’t tell.
This is so damn hard, but I’m trying. I need to describe the scene, build it up and make people believe they’re there.

Writing isn’t easy, and whoever says it is is a damn liar.  Right now, I’m concerned with getting the first draft out and then I’ll go over everything and flush it out. Fingers crossed I can finish this in a few months.

And counting…

Things are looking up where I’m back to writing in the morning at work. This was exactly how I wrote the majority of A Raven’s Touch and it looks like A Raven’s Revenge will be the same. Today, I wrote 400 words and that’s good enough for me. Little by little, the drop becomes an ocean and the words flow when they do.

Finding that balance between writing time and family time is hard to do in general. I know other writers always feel that pang of guilt when they’re away from their family and the same one when they’re away from the keyboard. Both are the best for a creative mind as the family provides stability and normalcy and the words provide that escapism and creative outlet.

I truly love my characters and I can’t believe the things I’ve put them through and they’ve come out stronger for it. In A Raven’s Revenge, darkness really takes a turn for the worse and creeps into the all of the characters. Physically, mentally, they’re suffering and it even breaks them, but as heroes, they have to go on. That drive is still there, burning hot, and it guides them to carry on.

It’s almost the same thing that drives me. I want to see the end of this crazy adventure. How will they do it?

Oddly enough, for A Raven’s Revenge, I wrote most of the ending before I wrote the middle. That was my way of motivating myself to write and I’m surprised it worked. Here we are at 31,030 words. It’s like standing on a very small hill, but albeit a nice one.

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Keep rollin’, rollin’, rollin’

I just hit 30,000 words and I’m ecstatic!

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Looks like I’m halfway there to a first draft. Mind you, 50,000 is considered a novel, but I hope to at least get to 60,000. Though A Raven’s Touch clocked in at oh gosh, I think 120K, I whittled it down to 90,000ish….I think? I can’t even remember.

One thing I learned, as a first time writer, was not to overwrite. I don’t need two chapters explaining what characters ate. Even though I want to explain it all. I freaking love food. Either way, I’m going to keep rollin’, as per my friend K.T, and hopefully, I can actually get this thing written in 2018. Whooo!


And things take a darker turn

The last time I checked in with my word count (on my personal Facebook) it was Halloween and I had clocked in at 27,533 words. Not horrible, but not the greatest either. I can’t really beat myself up about my progress as I’ve had other things on my mind. Today, I sat down and managed to get a few more words down on the page.

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Success? Kind of. I’m closer to breaking that 30,000 barrier and that’s a feat in itself. Perhaps by the time I get to the end, I’ll look like this:


Seriously though, I’m writing a part of the story where I put the spotlight on a character named Becca. If you recall, she was in mentioned briefly in A Raven’s Touch when her parents come to visit Justice. Becca had committed suicide at a young age. I didn’t even know I was going to write her, but there she was.
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Now, that the gang is in hell, Becca pops up again. I knew A Raven’s Revenge was going to get dark, and this character is surprising me again. I’m going to have Becca confess why she did it and I feel like this part should come with trigger warnings.

Be warned. I am going to deal with my own demons and I have a feeling I’m not alone.


Back in the saddle aka my plight with Scrivener

My whole digital life is in the cloud. I upload pictures, files, and generally anything I want to work on or save. What irks me to no end is that Scrivener has decided their software must only be used on a computer. I don’t want to upload various versions of my story. I want to work on the SAME bloody story and have it save automatically just like Google Docs. That is what the consumer wants in this day and age. I don’t want to compile my document, save it to Google Drive, then download that document and work on it. I cannot take my laptop with me to my day job, ergo, I have no choice.

The frustration level has caused me to not even bother writing some days. Yes, I am mad at software. I’ve decided to bite my proverbial lip and do just what annoys me most. So yes, I’ve complied my A Raven’s Revenge, and now I will be able to work on it in the morning at my work computer. Though that angers me quite it’s the only option I have right now. Bah.


In other news, my imaginary friends are speaking to me again. The other night, I went to bed thinking about A Raven’s Revenge and how I could utterly destroy Justice only to watch her rise above it. I came up with some rather devious ways to break her heart. Yes, I torture my characters, but it’s only because I want them to really struggle to be the hero. What good is a story if everything comes easily. Right? Right.